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Fear and Loathing in the U.S.M.C. Life in a Whiskey Locker

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Sometimes I remember things as if it didn’t even happen. It’s strange. They make me scared to think about. I don’t know what to think half the time. I remember the whiskey lockers. They were just closets in the squad bays on Parris Island. I remember being told they don’t hit or abuse recruits. I was told it through boot camp and I was told it throughout my career in the Marines. I remember people talking about how great it was now how watered down it is compared to what used to happen.

I also remember something I can’t quite remember. It’s strange. It is vague but when I try to think about it I get a sinking feeling in my gut. I get scared. I remember being dragged into the whiskey locker. I though I was hit, I thought I was punched. I thought I was beat to the ground. I remember boots kicking me in the gut in the side and in the head. I remember my eyes ere closed and I was holding myself up just an inch or so from the ground with my toes and arms in a push-up position just having to hold myself there as I was kicked.

What’s wrong Thayer? Hu? What’s wrong? Not going to make it? That’s what I hear in that scratchy gruff voice. It wasn’t screaming like it usually was, it was lower. I could hear his real voice in there not the growl he ordered the recruits around with.  I remember his face smiling with each kick as I was threatened and told not to let myself touch the ground. I remember being told when I was pushing my body up too high. I remember the kicks when I collapsed on the floor. It doesn’t sound right. It doesn’t even seem real most of the time. It’s confusing for me. I’m not feeling good writing this. I feel scared and anxious. The floor smelled like Aqua velvet. I remember the yellow paint container open.

He would remind me a few times a week. If I was on the ground doing push-ups, or at the rifle range in the prone position firing my rifle. He would give me a quick light kick to the stomach or ribs and smile at me.

I remember thinking nobody could hear or see us in the whiskey locker. There was paint on the ground. I was painting campaign covers. It’s not just that. It’s all kinds of stuff. It all gets to me. You can’t talk about that. You are called weak and pathetic. Your personhood is diminished to shit, a bag of ass. All the brainwashed Marines have some little redundant mindless insult to come at you with to dismiss you and shut you up. Sometimes I can’t tell what was real. Other things haunt me and I just can’t seem to grasp it all. Some people tell me I have PTSD. I don’t know what to think.  I never saw combat. And does it matter if it’s real? It’s not like I’m stuck in a whiskey locker my entire life, but sometimes it is. Like in a car, or confined to a room, maybe. I don’t know what to think of any of it. I only know that I hate the fucking Marine Corps.

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EXIM Bank of India provides credits to 94 countries across the world

The New Nation (Dhaka, India) August 14, 2010 Dhaka, Aug. 14 — The Indian government since 1988, has extended 143 lines of credit, covering over 94 countries through the Export-Import Bank of India (EXIM India) that is totally owned by the state, sources said.

Under such initiatives India made credit commitments of over US$ 4.71 billion to 94 countries covering in Africa, Asia, Latin America and Europe. While the Reserve Bank of India, which is India’s central bank does not do any long term lending as the act of Parliament which set it up does not allow it to do so. However, the acts of Parliament which set up the Exim Bank and State Bank of India allow them to be vehicles of Government of India lines of credit. go to website bank of india

Exim Bank was set up by the Export-Import Bank of India Act, 1981, the sources said. The Government of India usually prefers to use the Exim Bank in most bilateral aid cases. The latest are those of loans to Tanzania ($ 40 million), Bangladesh ($ 1 billion) and Congo ($ 58.5 million).

Usually loans are given at Libor + 0.5 %. Libor rate has over the last two years fluctuated from 1.25 % to 4.5 %. India, tries to extend loans to friendly countries at a fixed rate of 1.75 %. In all such lines of credit, the government of India subsidies Exim Bank to the tune of 2.5 % for interest forgone. In comparison ADB lends at rates which work out to be in excess of 3 % to most of the less developed countries to which India gives such assistance, sources said.

Besides, Bangladesh, India Government-Exim Bank has lent at 1.75 % rate of interest with 20 year payback terms to the countries: Mozambique, Senegal, Angola, Myanmar, Guyana, Ghana, Tanzania and Congo. It has lent at the tougher Libor + 0.5 % rate with varying payback time, ranging from 5 years to 15 years to Zambia, Ghana, Myanmar, Sudan, Lesotho, Tajikistan, Syria, Mongolia, Suriname, Azerbaijan and Sri Lanka. Unlike ADB, World Bank, UK and USA, India does not insist on any policy changes in return for loan packages. In the past these international banks and Western donor nations have insisted on several ‘structural adjustment policies’ in return for loans: Across the- board privatization of public utilities and publicly owned industries; slashing of government budgets, leading to cutbacks in spending on health care and education; focusing resources on growing export crops for industrial countries rather than supporting family farms and growing food for local communities; downsizing government and public sector by adopting hire and fire policies, it said. here bank of india

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  1. Brad

    What a pussy.  We were all punched, all kicked, all clotheslined, and ALL MADE INTO WARRIORS.  What did you expect, deal with it, they were trying to save your life in combat by teaching you discipline and mental toughness.  Guess they failed.

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